It Is Well

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,

When sorrows like sea billows roll;

Whatever my lot,

Thou hast taught me to say,

It is well, it is well with my soul.

 If you have been following my journey over the past 4 weeks, you know that I thought and prayed long and hard about the decision I made not to go to Tisch. When it came down to it, I had to figure out what I really wanted out of my undergrad experience. While that decision will influence my life after college (I won’t be $200k in debt when I graduate), I had to focus on the environment my personality would do best in and the sort of place I wanted to grow as a person and as a performer. After 4 weeks of prayer, all that I knew for sure was that I had heard “be still” loud and clear. I am at peace with the decision, and am trusting that the Lord’s plan for my life is so much greater than anything I could ever imagine. I also realized during the contemplation period that it’s ok for dreams to change. Yes, I did have a dream as a little girl to go to Tisch, but as I began to dig deep into the “dream,” I ultimately discovered the goal of that dream was to be in a program where I could receive training in dance, music, and acting to prepare me for a successful future in the entertainment industry doing what I love…successful future in the entertainment industry doing what I love, that’s the goal; it doesn’t matter how I get to the final destination, that final goal, as long as I grow along the way. That was my first epiphany. Aside from that, I reassessed all of my other dreams: pursuing grad school (maybe for drama, maybe for journalism, or maybe for law), traveling, becoming the person I want to be, getting married, building a family, retiring, etc. (I’m still working on the whole “live in the present” thing). From there, I honed in a bit on who I am…I decided I would grow more in a smaller environment, with individualized attention, exploring all different areas of study. I love performing and will pursue it professionally, but I also love academia and writing and literature and being at a school where I know almost everyone and where the “passing hello” is alive and well. I like Southern hospitality. I like my sorority. I like the community I have been welcomed into where I am. I like being close to family. I like knowing I am not expected to know everything and have all of the answers, because I’m not a fully grown adult. I have so much to learn. I have so many life experiences to be had. So for now, I am going to “be still,” and continue to pursue my dreams where I am…

and that is well with my soul.

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2 thoughts on “It Is Well

  1. I can relate to this so much! This year, I had to reject my dream school and save myself the pain of diving into heaps on financial debt in order to attend, and I have realized since then that the Lord is simply guiding me into something better, and that my dreams are still on the horizon. Thank you for sharing your story!

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